Author Archives: Summer

The Watering From the Rain

“When it rains it pours……”- Tupac. The realness of this lyric has been resonating with me now more than ever. It seems like the more I ascend in life the more I feel like I am drowning, that the rain comes more than the sun. Have you ever desired the easier path in life? TheContinue reading “The Watering From the Rain”

Rainforest

Wicked trees blow, abruptly shaking the tranquility of the forest.Predators prey, in hopes that their prayer come true, dominance.Birds soar, and rest at the top, peaking down on the trouble on the forest floor.Anxiety, stealthy like a tiger, creeps up on the child, bombarding her with dreams of nightmares, a daily story of terrorism.The pastContinue reading “Rainforest”

Pain and I

It is funny how our relationship with pain, grows and evolves, as anything else does. As we grow older, wiser, experience more—not more pain necessarily; our possibly once toxic relationship with pain, can become cordial, healthy, and functional. Pain and I are not friends, but she is not my enemy either. If we look upContinue reading “Pain and I”

Be Willing, Not Ready

I remember God telling me this after I told him I was not ready to do something. Maybe it was the move to N.C, I am not quite sure, but his response to me was “You do not have to be ready to do something, just willing.” The fullness of God’s answer is breathtaking. IContinue reading “Be Willing, Not Ready”

Choosing You

Choosing you—a concept I have not yet fully mastered, a belief system that God has led me to, and a lifestyle I am actively trying to live out. I never thought I was worthy of choosing myself. Choosing you was a foreign concept, an intruder into my world. I remember in third grade; I finallyContinue reading “Choosing You”

Rejection Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

While applying to grad school, I felt incredibly insecure. The mixing pot of applying to a “ prestigious” school, also deciding to uphold the promise I made myself of getting all of my graduate level degrees from HBCU’s, the thought of entering into a new environment, the public speaking that will have to be doneContinue reading “Rejection Is In The Eye Of The Beholder”

Excerpt From My Diary

What am I trying to prove?Day in and day out?That I am resilient?That I don’t fall when I trip?That I can?That perfection is my friend, and knowing-it-all raised me?That my insecurities are not valid?That the pain I feel isn’t real?That the pain I feel isn’t normal?There’s nothing new under the sun.Why does it feel likeContinue reading “Excerpt From My Diary”

Missing Yesterday

Sweet birds are chirping.The smell of pine.The clicking of shoes against the pavement.The smiles of a stranger that penetrates a lonesome heart.The thrill of a roller coaster taken away by the screams of horror.Blissful nights awakened by darkness.A call to yesterday, hoping for an answer.Mysteries of today, the riddles of tomorrow, haunts us.I miss youContinue reading “Missing Yesterday”

Sunlight

Seems far away, Deep within me. Shine so I may see you, Shine so I may feel you. Sunlight, I know you’re behind the clouds, The beauty of your hidden rays, the tease of the sun, the peace of the light. Sunlight, visit me often. You have lately. Sunlight, come back for a second, IContinue reading “Sunlight”

A Now Happy

Ironically the revelation of having “a now happy” came about this time last year. I believe I had my fair share of ice cream over a “beau” I was interested in. Nevertheless, God gave me the revelation of having “a now happy” because I was in a place of constantly thinking of “next.” Whether itContinue reading “A Now Happy”